Saturday, January 22, 2011
Dear Blogger,
My 1st Saturday duty at B.Batok..it was great until i got a caller...an idiotic and simply annoying person,who really makes my day..a SUCK one..
Masyallah..i admit..sometimes i am just ashamed of other Singaporeans how they act or behave in public but this caller...he prove me right..totally i nearly spend 1.15 hr talking to him...and trying to get him end the call but unfortunately..he is a smart fellow...trying so bad to get answer to his reject applications but sorry dude...you got to write an appeal...hahahahahahha...and subject to Officer approval..
Dear Blogger,
I always had this perceptions in me..whenever something bad happens..never condemn others of it.
Asked our self..where do i go wrong in this issues..the answer is always there..for us to search and look for it HARD enough.
We will learn from the mistakes and move further and knowingly, we can avoid the similar mistakes from repeating itself in the future. And this...all from ourselves..nobody else.
We need to clear the air..before more assumptions occurs and more workloads are delays and outstanding reports pile up...get over the anger,dun let it control our self..at the end of the day...it is U..me.. who will be clearing all the "Interaction" details...Got It..!!!!
So, lets work together as a team and dun let others bring you down.....even without encouragement by others..We will do it..
Dear Blogger,
A deja-vu...i don't know how to explain it but i dream i was standing in a crowded room..with peoples that i am not familiar with. But someone with a red dress standing next to me and asking me my name..
And that happen today..exactly.
And the lady in red dress...turn out to be a old primary school friend ....and married now to my fren...hahaha..this is truly a small world..
Dear Blogger,
Its been raining for days and days non-stop. Its disrupting my night routine of night walk and exercise. Although the Chinese always believe, if there is a lot of rain 15 days before the Chinese New Year, it will be a blessing year ahead. Its a year of a Rabbit 2011.
Dear Blogger,
I admit..due to new work responsibilities and training of the domain HPSM,especially IWPS system, i admit it is not an easy work..Back to IT life..after more than 10 years i left it...now i got to pick up the basic skill...and all the stress with it,all over it again. Nevertheless, i know this is just a JOB..my passion is not in it. It's just a job which pay more than my other jobs and more better benefits. But with the location so near to CCK and just a 3 stop away from the CCK MRT, i am an IDIOT if i turn down this offer. I am so blessfully glad to be selected to be in this Team.
There is always blessing in disguise. Although i find the training and job scope in POC is more harder but compare to NCS, the training is more complex but everyone play a part in helping each other and always give a helping hand. The ambiance and environment is better compare to POC, where Darren Fleury always breathing down our neck to complete the task and attend to International Patients queries.
My New Year celebration for 2011 is simple affair. Me,Indira,Aaron,janna and family and rafeah make it a point to be at VIVO countdown. That night marked the 16th years of friendships of me with Indira and Rafeah. My 2 old frens..knowing them since teenager till they become mother. And Janna too..such a blessing to know this wonderful lady with a golden heart and great patience. She had never lack in giving out advise to others. Below is some pictures of that night..enjoy
Indira,rafeah,me and Janna
the mummy's with their son and me..
Dear Blogger,
Success is not a destination but it's a Journey...which we shed tears and sweats for it..and Got It..
I know this sound strange but ever since July 2010, i have been trying to lose my weight,which increase and decrease in a short time spam. I managed to lose a total of more than 12kg...for the past 6 months..Wow..it is a definitely a big SUCCESS for me..and those who are supporting me..like my close frens and family.
Never did i care much of the food that i eat...and never did i care much of the drinks i drank but now..its either Coke Zero..if i ever wanted a coke or it will be non-carbonated or better still...plain water. I am also watching the sugar level and the carbo. Should i jump to Atkin Diets? I read in the Internet forum, Atkins Diet is something that is not well recommended to those who are in the range of more than 35 BMI...and i am one of those. So..it will be the natural way then..more brisk walking and cutting down on carbo and more proteins.
I love the changes in my body. I can feel my thigh have shape up and my ABS have decrease. My jeans are getting loose and my tops are getting loose too. I need to put in extra effort to tone up my body..especially the ABS area and the legs..i really need to work out more.
At the same time, these activities do take my mind off on several issues. My inner self confidence and the trainings for Domain module. These are so tough...tougher than the CGH training but insyallah..i will able to make it. Since i am already reaching 85%...why give up now? Of course, i will not. I am not a Quitter..and i am not going to be one. No one except myself....have to stand up..be a Better Person.
Dear Blogger,
Sufian Harris sms me this morning....he met with a small accident..now this is sad. A fren met with an accident in a foreign country without any family members or friends around. I hope he is doing ok. He did told me a bit thru emails, about the training that he doing, with some other pilots. The stress mode for me to increase. That's why i didn't see him often in facebook. Or else, he will keep on tagging me with music videos or any other post. I hope he is doing ok and may Allah always protect him.
My training Domain is ending soon. The HPSM software is not something we all could master in just a few weeks but with all the jargon's and code..it is still a big headache for me. But, there is always something new for me to take on. So, walk into that door and see what is the opportunity waiting for me. Every minute and second is priceless and once we wasted it, there is nothing to regain it back. So,whatever we choose..whatever our path is...there is no looking back. Look forward to the future. No one is stopping you...no one but Our self.
I realised that, been back in updating my blog, i forgot to mention that Indira and Aaron Swan was in town for Christmas and New Year Celebration with families and friends. I really enjoy both mother and son company although it was a short visit. I am missing her and Aaron already. It was nice to see Aaron,tall and big at his age and look good. And Indira, mature and looking good too. I really enjoy those last minute to spend with them together with Janna and family,Rafeah and wan and Indira and son..to the 2011 countdown. These are the peoples,together with others who are close to me,are there for me..in my up's and down's.
Dear Blogger,
Ever since in July 2010, i have been enjoying the night brisk walking at the CCK and Brickland Road...and i seldom miss..even though i had several injuries on my right leg. And a few visit to Sports Medicine Clinic in CGH. My third was in Nov 2010..and was told,to take a rest. A good rest.I didn't. Time is running out. And i don't even know whether i should go for the audition in April 2011 although, the agent has already confirmed it with me. Should i? This is the 4th Drama i will be in and this time...more role. But, is it worth it? Should i? I got to lose those fats to fit into this character..be someone else but i might not be comfortable..yes, they say i fit the role character but i haven't read the script. I could only get it in April 2011. There is still more time to decide and ponder on this but at the same time..the run is still continue. And just this afternoon, i weigh myself...and i counted...i have lose 12kg ever since i started this nitewalk..i m so happy...soo very happy...there is no words i could describe.This is the most i have lost so far..ever since i have been trying to lose weight but this amount of kilos off me..i feel good..the jeans are getting loose, eating less and my body is leaner. I could see the sharp edges on my face and importantly..my DIMPLES..hahahah..i m Loving It..
Dear Blogger,
There is something..of all that i want to say to myself and for those who are reading this blog..
" Let go of the past... Learn from it yesterday, but by all means, move forward "
I am trying my very best to follow this words. Someone,i know and close to,someone i respect most in my circles of frens, msg it thru in my facebook. Advising me..
" Leave it to Allah..let it go..do something to forget..go out with your frens..dun think so much of it..this is just a test from Allah knowing you are strong enough to handle it. Yes, you can Nora,nobody is perfect in this world..nobody. All of us, as human, will go thru this stage one day,either will be early or later ,its depends. Nothing goes smoothly..that's unordinary. Take it as lesson you learn,although its a bitter one. Learn to forgive the person,who impact this hurt on you and you will definitely,will forget it fast. Learn to FORGIVE and FORGET....leave it to Allah to guide you,spiritually...be closer to Him and always remember Him in your prayers.
We can't do anything if Chubb Nadd want to bad mouth you more and more...and fabricating more nonsense. There is nothing we can do but listen but those knowing you..who are close to you..will know what is true and what is not. You have been told of this Nad but you still go ahead and befriend and be close to her. Don't say we didn't warned you earlier,we did. We told before of what she is capable of but we know,knowing you for years, you are stubborn. That's a Scorpio in you. Take it as lesson..bitter than the one you been thru...and go with the flow. Allah always be with you..if you always remember Him. There is always a reason everything happen. You have told me about him being someone fiance since October,when you got those msg in FB..but knowing you,my fren,you are not the type to disturb others relationship. You respect others belonging. There is no need for you to respond or reply or retaliate of whatever she says..be proud that you know,where you stand..truth will be out one day. Silence doesn't mean you are weak or lost. We always stand behind you.
So don't drown yourself in this matter..make 2011 a year of more promising future and i pray, everything will goes smoothly for you . "
Thank you so much kak..knowing you is a blessing in disguise. Although we don't work in the same workplace anymore but your advise,really give me more motivation to move and forget those 2 people exist in my life. Yes, you are right..nothing is free in this world. We have to pay it with a price..
Dear Blogger,
There is one topic which i want to say in this blog for today....
"Don't pretend to be my friend, you are or you aren't"
I had enough of this Chubb Nad nonsense in her facebook wall..i had enough. There is no use of writing those statements or commenting for self pity if she didn't push herself and make herself realise where she goes wrong. Should i retaliate and reply to whatever she wrote and talk about me. I know..she bad-mouth me..this 23 years old girl...whom i befriend for the past few years and only be close to her..in 2010. I know,those who came forward to me,earlier and warn me of her..would definitely laugh at my back but they didn't. They just send me msg thru facebook and told me, its ok. Just believe in Karma..she done to several peoples before, you are not alone..some even told me" I TOLD U SO".
How does it feel..to be in my shoes? How does it feel to have this kind of person,in your life..making things difficult for you to move on? How do you feel..its like being stabbed in the back? This is something happen to me before..i should know how to cope with the pain..although the scenario is different, but the pain i had, is something difficult to forget.
He,listen to her story. Never even asked me any explanation but then, i am nothing..maybe just a fling or stranger,delete me..from FB after i deleted her. Obviously,there is nothing much i could say but there is something.......
"Open up your mind and change your way,you are hurting women's with your flirting way"..
I really pity his girlfriend of 3 years and now his fiancee...whom he got engaged in July,before coming to SG...i really pity her..maybe only she could hold him down on his flirty ways..all the best lady....
Anyway,back to the original topic..i decided to let everything..this episode to close. Let her say whatever she want..let her do...whatever she want..its her life. Why i delete her from my Fb, i got a reason for it..personal or not, its mine choice. And i pray..whatever happen, will be a big sad lesson for me. I pray and hope, i will not come across her again..never lay my eyes on both of them.
As my big sister,Salina and my close friends advise, "everything happen for a reason.there is always a blessing in everything".. this incident could be a bitter one for me but it make me feel more appreciative of my close frens and families who never stop showering me with their concerns and advises over and over again.
All i hope and pray, he won't go around and hurt more hearts..especially Fats girls like me..and i do hope..that he will realise that he actually should feel lucky to have a fiancee who are so patience with his flirty way.
NORA
the mummy's with their son and me..