Saturday, October 23, 2010
Dear Blogger,
Sometimes, we have to sacrifice something that is too dear in our life. Sometimes, we got to let go something very precious in our life..and sometimes, we have to make ourself understand..that what we wanted..may not be ours. It is fated...may not be in our hand.
There is a saying " Always expect the Unexpected"...and was told by me..by a dear fren, Ahmad Mahi. And bro, i am sorry for the passing of your grandma on last Thursday...Salam Takziah.
There will be time, when our service in the current department..have to make way...for a new project. Since i will not be following the CGH team in the end of NOV 2010..there will be a chances i will be under other technical or customer support team but which one or where..is the big question for myself. There was a news brought by the "Gossip Wind" that there is an opening for "Android" team but when and who is in charge is still unknown. There is also an opening in LTA team but which one of us is going..there is no answer to it yet.
As far as i know...i dun mind anywhere they are putting me..i have to accept anything given to me with an open mind and eagerness to learn new products and stuffs. Nothing is going to stay as permanent in this working life..its either we got to learn new things every now and then or we will be back dated in whatever is new in the market.
Well....let see the result in end of November 2010...and with much anticipating...i hope and pray..i get a better place.
Dear Blogger,
After much thinking and worries that i may harm others feelings..especially a phantom third party, this is all i can say;
"i want that person who comes into my life by accident and stay for purpose as my fren.."
Would that be too much to ask?
If ever he is reading this..i hope he understand...
Dear Blogger,
For more than several years i wasn't in any relationship...no messy headaches or calls to answer. But i do miss those romantics phrases or sweet words that were says to you..sometimes.
He, suddenly appear in my life as a fren thru the facebook. Someone that i doesn't know totally and not even related or connected to any friends. And i am even surprised at myself by adding him..knowing that is not my usual style. I do not add anyone unless i do know the person personally or any relations. But when we start to chat, i find him full of witty personality and a joker. As we more interact with him daily...especially with emails..i begin to look forward for his every email..or sms. Never seen him before..from the way we correspond thru emails and sms..i assumed this guy is older or mature in his personality. I like him..even before i met him. I know..its crazy but the feeling of growing fond of him..develop instantly. Nope..this is not love..i assured myself over and over again. I can't fall in love that fast and easy.. i told myself..in a positive way..don't ever fall in love
But fate play in a unusual way..when i met him for the 1st time, i was expecting a mature guy but the person standing in front of me, at that time, was a calm,gentle and sweet looking guy. He speak in a soft spoken tone in a gentle way. I like him...a simple and sweet nature person. He is full of advice and never lack to give them. As time goes, i learn more about him..chat with him and get closer to him. We flirt with each other..to the extend i know where to stop but at the back of my conscience, there is always something i need to know..so that i do not hurt another party or another person. I don't know if he is married with a wife and kids waiting for him back home. I didn't know if he is engaged to a lady, who is waiting for him to finish his course here in Singapore..and i don't know...importantly if there is a special lady waiting patiently for him back at home.
I make a rule for myself, when i went thru a similar experience before..which i unknowingly went out with a married man, till the wife contact me. I, after much thinking, back out of the relationship. It is best to maintain the relationship as friends..and till now..we are still friends. I don't want to hurt another women's feeling...it is like hurting my own sister or girlfriends. The pain i once went thru..i surely doesn't want any women's to go thru with it. The sleepless nite and tears are enough to push me to the brink of....
Back to him...as i know him more closely, i like the person of who he is, not what he is...there is a big difference. I always looking forward to see the simple him, in his purple polo tee with his laptop bag and jacket..trodding to the mrt station, every morning. Him, who sometimes will wear the same polo-tee twice a week,really tickle my humour bones. I always look forward to his morning email..which will brought a huge smile on my face..even thou i am facing the toughest training practical in front of me. His jokes and comical ways of expressing in the mails..makes me laugh and giggles..Those were the beautiful 3 1/2 months to me..and i hope, he will feel the same too..
But i know...you can't force someone to like you...or fall for you. Its best to cultivate a friendship with him..for its better.....
Dear Blogger,
Previously, i was writing something that happen to me about 8-9 years ago..while writing that particular parts of old history...suddenly all the past..the fights and hurtful words was remember...and these happens when i was writing about it..I have already forgive and forget about it...but why does it leave a mark in me..maybe because i am still bothering of all the insults he throw to me..that's hurt...and i hope, he will learn to respect women's.
Dear Blogger,
It is difficult to explain when you have something that you kept to yourself..and always have the curiosity to knew...at the earliest possible moment..this is to help you to prevent any misunderstanding in any relationship...yes..i am saying..RELATIONSHIP
There was a saying " When you doesn't need me but want me..i will stay but when you need me but doesn't want me...i will go"
I am someone simple in every general aspect. Those whom know me personally and close to me, will know my past history in life..there is few..who stay by my side..for uncountless time..when i need a shoulder to cry..be it an old fren or a new one.
There was a time, back about 8 - 9 years ago, my feelings was callously hurt and trampled by a guy who i was seeing for less than 6 months. A person with a short temper is not suitable as a partner in your life..although i do know..he sometimes do read this blog....the bleakest moment of this disastrous short relationship..i pick myself up and learn to heal my inner-feelings on my own time...slowly putting myself in Allah hand..to show or guide me ..with frens and family surrounding me..in no time..the OLD NORA is back..with gusto..hahah
Date and after much blinds date which is set up by some frens...are not something i was looking forward to. But due to their persistent and much anticipating wish...i do attend some. Most of dates..end up better being a friends. In my personal view, Men in general especially Malay mens...the packaged the want in their women's is beauty are rank no 1 , follow by size and lastly personality is at the last bottom. In another word, it doesn't matter if the girlfriend is a "Blond Bimbo" and always think of Louis Vuitton before sleeping..The looks of a lady is more important to them..not the personality or the character. And this is what MEN want...they are simply LAME...just don't get it at all...
NORA