Friday, November 19, 2010
Dear Blogger,
I admit..due to several failed relationships in the past...and several types of men i had short relationships before..one left me a scar, which till now, i can felt it..just like Yesterday.
My current situation is simple..i dun know if he is interested in me..since he didn't admit it but i have express and directly told him..in an email. There was a bit of misunderstanding between me and him that lead to some wrong interpretation but we sorted it..slowly. A third party was drag into this mess...its all started from me and i know..where is my weakness and my strength. We spend time a lot together and i am confused of his attention and views in me. Sometimes, i wonder am i just a "passer-by" for him, while he is still in Singapore..to fill up his time..before everything end next year...and he will flew back home..to his family. I don't know...some will call me "Idiot" or "Stupid" to still...wanted to be with him but i am willing..to stay as his friends. Hopefully, insyallah, i hope everything will be all rite. There is no way we, humans could tell whats in the future for us..only Allah..and he will determine the future for all his umats.
I always the one, who always back away from any relationship..if there is any party is involve. It happen 6 years ago but as time flies fast and it heal the pain...although friends and family are always there for me. Their love and concern, is Priceless...Nothing i could said..could describe it.