Dear Blogger,

Its been 2 days that I last heard from him. I wonder how he is and how is his result from the previous test..i wonder did he make it thru or just managed to scrap thru it..but knowing an intelligent person like him, I am confident he will make it..with flying colours..

Deep inside me…is telling me to be cautious of this man..but being a women and a weak one at that, I follow my own heart althought my sense telling me otherwise. Why..cause we are the weakest species Allah has created. I am not someone strong. I could fall down anytime if I got hurt and bruise. Nobody is perfect..everyone has a flaw in them..there was a saying..” Learn to love human flaws as much as perfections”..in another word, nobody is perfect in this world.

I had a great walk/run last nite along the Brickland Road..although it was drizzling last nite but it wasn’t heavy as I thought. Me and my niece, Nadd brave the weather together with other joggers, and reached the peak. I felt good..after few days of hiatus of the haze and heavy rain..i felt good..and will continue doing so till I am able to reach what I want..and by doing so..i am able to relax my mind and able to focus more on other stuffs in my life. I know I can do it..and I have prove myself I am able to do it..Go Nora..Go..U can Do It..

Life is short..better live to the fullest…I am telling myself that everyday…no matter what time and what day. This is to remind me..there is no harm to do what I wanted to do…as long as it is the right way.

Dreams…in within 2-3 months..2 of my frens dream of me in an akward position for I, myself had the difficulty to explain. One dream of me, having a bath in the Ramadan month while another, dream of me , crying badly in her dreams weeks ago. Surprise..intrigue and strange suspicious came to my mind. Why ? I can’t answer to that..and I truly don’t know what is the answer, only the almighty Allah able to show me the sign. Most of them, especially my sister-in-law, Fida told me not to believe any of the dreams..unless we dream it contuniously for 3 days. I ever dream of him twice…in my dream, he was sitting near a window and was looking outside,with facial impression deep in thoughts and worried expression. Something tell me, he is troubled by something back home. I know…he might have a family back home..although he do admit he is not married. He could have a fiancée or someone special. I know I shouldn’t hope for anything…shouldn’t think anything related to him. Never give my heart away…It is easy to say, but difficult to carry it out..very difficult. I have tried to do it…but failed everytime.

My close fren is taking a bike lesson….to ride her bike to work everyday, since now she is single again and just her and her kids…she is going to achieve what she wanted. Go for it ..i always encouraged her..do what you want to do..nobody gonna stop you now..

Suddenly, I miss my love ones..my late grandmother and my late mother..i miss them so much. Their presence in my life was a short one..that didn’t allowed me to spend more time to be with them or showered them more luxury or loves when they are old. Their presence in my life, changes bit of me..in good and bad. I was closer to my grandmother than other cousins or siblings. I am the one who goes to her if my other cousins bully or ignored me. Her words of wise advices always play in my mind and heart. I always remember her nagging..especially when I came back from school..”Nora…dah sholat”..she always make sure I will do my duties and pray..and be a good muslimah. But why, till now..i couldn’t fulfil that for her. Although I couldn’t complete my 5 times a day prayer…at least I try to do so. It was a sin to miss even one of it..i am ashamed to be call a MUSLIM if I am leading this type of lifestyle. Although I have stay away from alcohol,drug or casual sex…at least I know..i am not going down those road…

There was a saying..life is unpredictable. “expect the unexpected”. I was worry of a fren current condition with her life. I could say, it was going to be a messy divorce ahead of her but knowing her…since 15 years ago..i know she will get through this with just a flick of her hand and she will move forward. There is a better life for her ahead. Although she will be saddle with 2 kids, there is no way and nothing gonna stop her for doing what she wanted. And she are now learning to ride a bike..isn’t that good. I myself can’t afford to do so…...