Sunday, November 2, 2008
Dear Blogger,
The weekend is the time for me to sleep..sleep...and more sleep...i am down with cough and flu...hhmm..i don't remember from whom did i got it from..maybe it the environment in the KKH..
My apology to all my friends who try to contact me on the weekend..Suzan(sorry beb, i miss 3 call from you),Deen(very sorry..maybe next time we meet up..i buy u dinner),my lovely purple cousin,Siti Zubaidah(janganlah merajuk..u are not the only one i got miss call),Ben(opps..miss your call again,anyway thanks for the nice sms..i will drink a lot of water).
I been trying to avoid a call from Zaki but i realise that by doing so, it won't solved the problems that bothering the both of us. It is not his fault and neither do am i being selfish but i realised, i am not ready to accept any relationship offer by him..i got to remember that he is a divorcee but i am not prejudiced against that. I am just not READY...
I am not waiting for Prince Charming with a body and face like Brad Pitt..hahahah..that if i am Angelina Jolie. I am just a simply girl looking for sincere love from a guy, no matter how he look like. But Zaki offer me a complicated relationship that i believe, after so much of thoughts, i am not going to accept it..i don't want to share a man with another woman..i ask him to think and have a great thought of his children's(he got 2 lovely boys).
I hope he will understand. For few weeks, our date is a memorable one for me but alas, it has to stop here. I don't a chapter in my life that hurtful to me. A memory is just a past that i want to forget. He is the man,who managed to "open my heart" and enable me to accept a Malay man companion. I am strongly not a "Sarong Party Gal", but i don't know why it is so difficult for me to accept Malay man as a partner in my life. I pray and hope Allah could show me the way.
NORA